Life's Obsessions.

You've got to admit it, everyone has an obsession and that's no lie. You, me, and every one of your friends.

Who has the blame? TV, the internet and magazines. TV and magazines has fame, while the internet has twitter and facebook; which means 'make as many friends as you can'. But these have become our social life. It's quite sad to see where this life has gone. I feel it's been like this for a very long time. Way before I was born, let's just say the 30's ish, because that's around when the fame started; acting wise and movie making. If you ask me, I find that quite crazy. And technology has improved a lot since then, which makes us more interested in movies, internet and magazines.

I think Facebook and Twitter are number one on that list. People depend on that to socialize and to have a 'proper life'. When I think that's crap. There are easier ways to make friends, do it the old fashion way, walk up to the person and talk and be yourself. I think what Facebook was made for is to stay in touch with people you might never see again. And for Twitter, that is just a place to update statuses, I know this because I have one. And it's slightly boring, yet addicting at the same time... but that's not my point. It's retarded how this planet revolves so much around those two sites.

People, there are other things to worry about. So what if your house isn't big enough, or you don't own a car when your family has 2, or your friend has more facebook friends than you. There are much bigger things to life than that. People are out in this world struggling. Like for instance, Japan and their earthquakes, kids and family's around the world who don't have anything.

I know I've gone from innocent to serious, but I feel like that's where we go in our own lives. From just a slow and normal liking into a must have obsession. And that's scary, but the truth.

Fasting is appropriate in this situation and it's hard, but it's possible. We need to turn to God and gain everything we can from Him. He will guide us, help us. If you can't hear Him speak, turn to the Bible. It's happened to me before, it's a neat experience.

Life is interesting. Don't get me wrong, I do love life. And everything God has given me. I just think that we need to focus on the things that God wants us to see. Help the helpless, and bring people to Him and His Kingdom. It's hard, yes, I know. I still struggle to this day with bringing people to church. And to talk to friends who aren't christian or who don't want to even look at you when you say Jesus. But it's something that must be done. If they don't want to be apart of it, that's their choice. As long as you try, God will be pleased with whatever you do. He loves you no matter what you do or don't do.

Roller Coaster of Life.

I've been on a roller coaster. And let me just say, it isn't fun. I'm not enjoying it at all. It's a scary experience! And it still is. But it's a moment in life that we all go though.
Life will give us little bumps in the road, but with God and Faith it is so smooth with or without those bumps and roller coasters. No matter what happens, He is with us.
I've learned that! And I'm still learning. I'll have moments that I'll struggle with, and my friends do warn me. But I don't listen, just the other day I jumped into a situation that's unhealthy for me. And I'm still trapped in that unhealthy situation. It circulates. And it really, really, really sucks. But that was my choice.
I have moments of anger and tears, and that happens over and over again. And it hurts. But what got me out of that situation was the help of a few of very amazing friends. I wouldn't be where I am today without them.
Friends are so important to me right now. And I'm thankful for them.
But seriously guys, choose the right path. There's paths of good and evil.
Choose. It's hard. But you have a choice, and God will still love you for whatever choice you make.
In my opinion, good is better than evil. And good always wins, no matter the situation. Don't listen to the lame voices in your head, because they are wrong! It's easy to tell who is who. God will never say to you that you're ugly or you're worthless. Genesis 1:27; "So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them."
Just remember that.
Isaiah 40. Read it.

I know I jumped out of context. But the main point is to forgive and move on. If you ever need anything, go to God, he's always there. Or talk to friends, they know and understand. But go to the ones you trust! Go to the ones that won't sugar coat it, go to the ones who will tell you straight up. Those are the ones that have helped me. And I love them for that. I really do. And they are my friends that I will trust forever.
Listen, it helps.
Now I ask only one question, what path do you choose in life?

March 26th.

On march 26th, my brother:

Andrew Hamilton.

Got married to a beautiful girl:

Stephanie Senges.

It was a beautiful wedding.

Black dresses and tuxes, yellow accents, white bride. Absolutely stunning. And on top of it all, it never poured with rain. Thank the Lord.

Bridesmaids got with other bridesmaids, and groomsmen with other groomsmen.

Girls got up early to get their hair and make-up done, while the boys had breakfast, chilled, watched a movie and then got ready to leave for the church. Wowie, we're all so different.

The bridesmaids gathering was fun! We helped the bride get ready for her BIG day. Her dress was breathtaking. She looked like a princess; Ivory lace, bows and toole. Wow.

And to complete her dress, she had a marvelous bouquet of yellow flowers. Lily's and roses.

I couldn't believe how amazing we all looked, her mom and my mom, her family and my family, her friends and his friends, we all looked outstanding.

(I'm trying to think of more words to describe this day, and I can't think anymore, there's just not enough.)

God definitely gave us an amazing day that none of us will ever forget. :)

The church, Ebenezer Baptist Church, was beautifully decorated, yellow flowers everywhere. I adored it.

The groom took the grandparents down the isle, along with the parents of the bride and groom. And then it was time for the groom to pause and wait by the alter for the bride. The groomsmen waited a the bottom of the isle for the bridesmaids, as one by one they walked down.

On top of the stage was a band, a band playing 'Only Hope'. It was beautifully done, sounded just like the real group who sang it originally before.

It was the grooms friends from church.

I loved it, everyone did.

Everything was perfect, it was a beautiful happy ending.

Tears of joy, we watched the bride walk towards the groom. She looked stunning, and he had no clue what to say, I think he looked quite stunned himself.

They are so happy, it makes me happy to see my brother so full of joy and love.

The reception happened at Stanley Park Pavillion. Like I said it was beautiful, yellow accents everywhere. The building was ancient, I loved it. Lots of people after the ceremony came out. I felt like there was more people at the reception than there was at the ceremony.

There was speeches from both sides. It was very heartfelt, there were tears and laughs. Definitely a beautiful, disney felt wedding. I loved it. She was happy that her dream came true.

The bride had a Daddy Daughter dance and a First Dance with Andy. It was adorable, I almost cried.

There was a huge dance party, that everyone danced too. 

It's hard to let go of the ones you love, I had to do that multiple times. It's not easy. I hate goodbyes. Saying goodbye to people is only hard if they live on the other side of the world and if they move into another new family.

I had to say goodbye to Tim and Anita Van Egmond. :(

I had to let go of my brother, so he could live happily with his wife, and to live and belong with the Senges. (Not like he didn't before). But it's still hard.

I know I'll still see him, but still... it's hard.

So that's the wedding info, lots to say, and lots to show. It was amazing, and I loved every minute of it. :)!!

Day Ten.

So I completely cheated. By having two tall drinks. BUT they were only steam milks. So no biggy there. Oh well, I kept it healthy. :)
Anyways, I can't stay up talking all night long, I do have to wake up super early. Let's say 6 o'clock, because I need to shower before I get my make up done and also I need to have my hair wet, when I get it styled at 9 thirty. Lucky me eh?
So don't be all bummed out if you don't get a blog that night. Who knows what time I'll be home from the reception downtown.
(Be prepared for a tired Leanna Sunday morning)

Anyways, Anita (Tim's sister; Andy's best man's sister), is here as well. She came thursday. And I clicked in so well with her, I don't want her to leave! She leaves Monday :(
I guess I'll just have to visit her in Australia :) I know she'll be reading this one day.
But I've always wanted an older sister, and I've found out that we're so much in common. And it's awesome. Like I'm happy with the siblings I have now! And I love them to pieces. But there's something about Anita that is totally wicked. Well it might be because she's australian, but other than that, she's also got an amazing heart for God. And who doesn't want someone like that. :) Like come on. I don't know, but I love her. She's definitely made my friends list... oh and family.
Tim is like another Andy, Anita, Lisa, Steph (soon to be, aka in the next couple hours). <--that's weird to say.
Sigh, I don't know where I went with that. It started out as a fast, then a cheat, then tiredness, then family/friends.. yeah I'm tired.

Wish me luck down that isle! (There'll be pictures, trust me.) Church friends, I'll tell you all about it sunday. :)!
And you friend friends, will hear about it soon. I promise you!

But I must say good night! <3

Day Nine.

I've failed you once again. I had a bunch of snacky sweets today. Cookies, cake, a few chips, pop... and even a frappy from Starbs. Can you believe me? I barely lasted a week. Gosh I suck with fasting. I think I remember the one time I lasted a week or something without facebook. Yeah it was amazing. And this was when I was in school too. So proud.
Anyways, today was awesome! At first I was so nervous, but it turned out great. This wedding is going to be totally awesome! "I'll cast some spells, with a flick of my wand. Defeat the dark arts, yeah bring it on! And do it all with my best friend Ron, 'cuz together we're totally awesome!" Sorry, thats a really good play.. Very Potter Musical. Watch it on youtube. Anyways, if you want you can come to the ceremony on saturday... well as long as you know who the bride and groom are, then you can. But if you don't, then that would be awkward for you.
But this rehearsal went great. Better than I thought. And I've got to remember to walk faster than my slower walk. :/ Wish me luck, pray for me... that's better. :)
Yeah, at first I was nervous, it sorta calmed down, but now its back... Oh man, and I'm the first down the isle. And its a pretty big one too. We defs need to space out our walking though, because we have the song all sorted out. It's 'Only Hope' by Switchfoot. And Andy's got Sam Romijn singing it :) and he's doing a fan-tiddly-astic job at it too. He sounds like the real deal. Sam's the wedding singer.
So it went smoothly, and I'm glad.
I'm partnered up with my Uncle awesome... he's totally going to make me laugh.


Okie Dokie. So if I don't blog saturday, give me a break. Because, I have to wake up at like... early. My make-up appointment is at 7:30... and I need to have clean hair for my appointment afterwards. So shoot me? Lucky me. Woo hoo.
But who knows, you might get a post at like 2 in the morning. Hahaha, anyways have a great night/morning :)

Day Eight.

Well today I totally cheated with my co-worker. Oh well. At this point I don't really care, haha. It's only a couple more day's till my brother's wedding anyways. And I'm so stoked for it too!
Soon enough I'll have another sister in the family (if you don't include her own siblings).
Oh the joys of weddings. :) Getting all dolled up... and looking your best. Sigh. One day that'll be me.. but not for a long long time....
I like how I went from cheating to weddings. Aren't I grand?

Dat Seven.

I'm going to keep this one short and sweet.

No Starbs today! Absolutely nothing. And I worked in the store too.

Making my own tea from David's Tea. Forever Nuts. :)

And I watched Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince this morning... hehe. Love HP. <3