Recently I haven't been going to church and I'm to the point where it feels like I'm no longer a leader at youth. It feels weird, and I don't like it at all.
I know that I'm not losing sight of God and the bible. I know I can turn to it when I'm in dying need, but I feel like the friends that I made are slowly disappearing. But like I said, that's how I feel.
And the youth, sigh, I wished my work would understand a bit better that my religion is important to me. If this changed, I'd be the happiest person alive. Right now, I'm not so much anymore. I've been tired and not wanting to do anything.
When it comes to work, I don't get one or the other (aka night or morning), I flip back and forth. And it messes up you're sleeping pattern, and makes you sleepy and grumpy all the time.
And who wants to go to church when your both of those at once.
Over all I'm saying I'm sorry. When Fall hits, I'll be back at church and fixing up what I didn't do in the summer months.
Sigh, I'm glad I got all of that out of me. Thanks for listening.. if you read it. :)
