Scheduling sucks.

Recently I haven't been going to church and I'm to the point where it feels like I'm no longer a leader at youth. It feels weird, and I don't like it at all.

I know that I'm not losing sight of God and the bible. I know I can turn to it when I'm in dying need, but I feel like the friends that I made are slowly disappearing. But like I said, that's how I feel.

And the youth, sigh, I wished my work would understand a bit better that my religion is important to me. If this changed, I'd be the happiest person alive. Right now, I'm not so much anymore. I've been tired and not wanting to do anything.

When it comes to work, I don't get one or the other (aka night or morning), I flip back and forth. And it messes up you're sleeping pattern, and makes you sleepy and grumpy all the time.

And who wants to go to church when your both of those at once.

Over all I'm saying I'm sorry. When Fall hits, I'll be back at church and fixing up what I didn't do in the summer months.

Sigh, I'm glad I got all of that out of me. Thanks for listening.. if you read it. :)

A year of new beginnings.

Well just the other day, my sister graduated from a school that she's been attending for 13 years of her life. Its amazing how gorgeous her and her grade looked. They all looked so grown up! My sister looked like Princess Ariel; no word of a lie.

She had a date, that was one of her friends, not a real boyfriend. Even though all her friends wanted them to get married. Not yet! No! It was a great laugh.

It was a wonderful night though, I enjoyed the evening downtown in Vancouver with my best buddy.

All the girls looked amazing.

All the guys looked handsome.

They have a huge world ahead of them. I know that they are ready to get out there and make their own lives.

I'm excited to hear all their ideas and adventures. But for now, it'll take time to create them and start them up.

We're sisters. We'll always be sisters, throughout everything we do. We can always depend on one another, no matter what the situation is.

Rowell&Hamilton

Summer of 2011 and other years to come, we welcome the next generation.

Dream a little Dream of Dreams

Imagine if one day all of your dreams came true, like everything you ever dreamed of. And what if it stayed like that for a few days or maybe even a year? What would your plans be, if they actually came real? Mine would be ridiculous. So much planning.

That would be totally awesome! I wouldn't know what to do with myself. Life, I think, would feel that much better. It would be like living inside your head, or in your sketch book.

First off, I have way too many dreams to list and I'm sure you do too. But everyone should have at least a top ten. I'll try and narrow mine down.

So here are mine (not in any particular order):

1. Living life in the world of Harry Potter

      -> Everyone who is a HP fan dreams of this. I've always wanted to jump inside

         the novels and just know who Harry Potter is. I would love to meet all

        the characters and visit all the locations. Which is why I'm so excited that

        they made a Wonderful World of Harry Potter. One day, I'll be walking

        down the streets of Diagon Alley and entering the candy store called Honey

        Dukes, or entering Olivander's, the wand maker's shop. And after

        grabbing all my school supplies, I'll heading off towards Hogwarts, to be

        sorted into my house and living life in the wizarding world. Trust me all

        you Muggles, this dream of mine will come true one day!

2. Joining the "Glee Club" aka joining the cast

       -> Before I wasn't a Gleek, and I made fun of it. But once I started

           to watch it and follow it for Darren Criss, I sort of fell in love and

           started becoming obsessed. Oops, oh well!

          But anyways, besides that, I'm a huge fan and would do anything

          to see them live in concert and have a meet and greet. But what

          my dream is, is to be best buddies with the cast (childish I know,

          but deal with it). I've sort of fallen in love with each one of them.

          If I was apart of the cast, I think I would be a happy, happy child,

          like a child entering a candy store.

          That way, if I joined the cast, I'd be famous and I would be able to

          dance. FINALLY.

3. Working on the premises of Disneyland and becoming a Princess

      -> Oh man, this dream is still a dream that I dream for it to be real.

           If I had the privileges to work alongside of Mickey Mouse, I'd be

           speachless. My dream would come true for real. To be a character

           or someone who cleans up the park, or is a waitress in the

           restaurants, or is one of the people who controls the rides, would

           be absolutely amazing. I'm sure anyone would want this dream.

           Plus its Disneyland, you're like walking into a land of happiness.

           Trust me, I've been there several times (aka 7 or 8) and I feel

           it every time. But imagine working, and having that experience

           every single time of you freaking life. I'd be one happy girl

           (again).

4. Traveling ALL around the World

      -> Oh traveling. I'd adore this. If I had all the money in the world,

            I'd do this in a heart beat. I'd visit every city, province, state,

            country, and continent. And another thing with money, I'd give

            it to the needy, helpless, and the homeless. Because that's just

            the heart that I have.

            Plus, I'd have the perfect camera to take the perfect shots. Oh

            traveling how you seem to catch me every time.

5. Create my own/ be in a music video

      -> I love music and for some reason, being in a music video would be

           crazy. Just being in a video keeps that memory real.

           I guess this sort of goes along the same line of Glee.

           Just to be involved in a song/video would be absolutely awesome.

           :)

6. Design my own house

      ->I've always had the creative mind of making my own dream house.

          I even have pictures to prove my creativeness. Except they are

          unrealistic, so unrealistic its quite funny to look back at them. For

          the longest time, I wanted to be an interior decorator, because I

          love the fact of making my own designs in houses. Who wouldn't

          want to design their own house? Like if you had the money and

          the opportunity, I would and I would enjoy every second of it.

7. Go on a date with each one of my celebrity actors/musicians (Toooooo many to list, I'm deeply sorry)

      -> This is pretty self explanatory. Not much needs to be said here.

             ;) And trust me, those dates would be marvelous. We'd go everywhere and do

             everything and make that a night to remember. Bam.

8. Involved in a Movie

      ->K, seriously! Being in a movie would be epic! Imagine that, dude,

          everyone would want that. And no this is nothing like my second dream.

          This is pure epicness, think about it. Being involved in Harry Potter,

          Indiana Jones, Star Wars, Pirates of the Caribbean, Lord of the Rings,

          Star Trek, etc... DREAM COME TRUE. I can't say much more, it's

          just so epic. Too epic to even think of.

9. Living life successfully

      ->I know this sounds silly, and kind of common. But think about it.

          Wouldn't you want this? I think you would, because it wouldn't

          be fair for yourself.

          I know this sounds so broad, but think, you need a job & attend

          college/university to get you to where you want to be.

          Then you would want to find someone right for you and start a

          family, and continue to live life successfully.

          It sure is a dream of mine. Obviously, I won't have any of the

          other dreams that are listed above. But maybe one day a few

          would happen and I would need to think realistically. Make them

          all realistic. I guess, thats the difference between:

          real life & inside your head

10. Meeting Jesus

      ->This has been a dream ever since I was little. He has helped me out

          so much in my life and I thank Him for everything. But meeting Him,

          for sure, will come true. I know that our relationship is strong and

          that it will grow day by day. Jesus rocks, and I love Him to death.

          And I'll love Him forever and always. I'm excited to live with Him, 

          once I move into the Kingdom of God.

K, I literally had to think very, very hard for those 10 and give a small description too.

This has no meaning, just the fact that everyone has dreams and would love to live them. And you can live those dreams, it just doesn't come that naturally. You just have to work your butt off to get to that position. Sometimes it won't come that easily, but if you work your way towards that dream, it sure can happen, even if they aren't realistic. :)

Trust me, it'll happen one day.

So tell me, what are your dreams?

A Life Ahead of me.

This year my church hosted the Women's Conference. We had amazing speakers and an amazing team that put this entire thing together. I couldn't believe how beautiful it turned out to be, so many people, the church was packed and the speakers really knew what they were talking about. I learned a lot; it was pretty powerful. God was there the entire time. I loved every minute of it.

At first I had a moment where I thought that I shouldn't be there and I wanted to go home so badly. There was a lot of things that happened that day (which I'm not going to name) and I wasn't too pleased. But I got passed the fact that I was depressed and moved onto much more greater things. And I learned about it the entire women's conference. Thank God I didn't give up. I kept going, and I went every day.

He's done something in my life and has given me a passion.

Since there was many Australian speakers, I have given the thought of going there for a visit and maybe even school. I just feel like that is where I'm supposed to be. And if not school, then to find myself in God, and become closer to him in many ways. Every time I think about it, it makes me excited. And I've never felt like this for school, or a trip by myself before. I hope it works out.

The conference was amazing, and I feel that I learn something every year.

I can't wait for next year,

Life Women's Conference 2012, here we come!

   "Stand up in the challenge, and don't fall back" - Helen Burns

   "Have Courage to get up and get back at it again;
      When you are focused on the why, courage takes place and grows" - Holly Wagner

   "As long as we are in company with one another, we can stand up together" - Dr. Robi

   "Don't lose sight of the big picture of your own life" - Dianne Wilson

Life's Obsessions.

You've got to admit it, everyone has an obsession and that's no lie. You, me, and every one of your friends.

Who has the blame? TV, the internet and magazines. TV and magazines has fame, while the internet has twitter and facebook; which means 'make as many friends as you can'. But these have become our social life. It's quite sad to see where this life has gone. I feel it's been like this for a very long time. Way before I was born, let's just say the 30's ish, because that's around when the fame started; acting wise and movie making. If you ask me, I find that quite crazy. And technology has improved a lot since then, which makes us more interested in movies, internet and magazines.

I think Facebook and Twitter are number one on that list. People depend on that to socialize and to have a 'proper life'. When I think that's crap. There are easier ways to make friends, do it the old fashion way, walk up to the person and talk and be yourself. I think what Facebook was made for is to stay in touch with people you might never see again. And for Twitter, that is just a place to update statuses, I know this because I have one. And it's slightly boring, yet addicting at the same time... but that's not my point. It's retarded how this planet revolves so much around those two sites.

People, there are other things to worry about. So what if your house isn't big enough, or you don't own a car when your family has 2, or your friend has more facebook friends than you. There are much bigger things to life than that. People are out in this world struggling. Like for instance, Japan and their earthquakes, kids and family's around the world who don't have anything.

I know I've gone from innocent to serious, but I feel like that's where we go in our own lives. From just a slow and normal liking into a must have obsession. And that's scary, but the truth.

Fasting is appropriate in this situation and it's hard, but it's possible. We need to turn to God and gain everything we can from Him. He will guide us, help us. If you can't hear Him speak, turn to the Bible. It's happened to me before, it's a neat experience.

Life is interesting. Don't get me wrong, I do love life. And everything God has given me. I just think that we need to focus on the things that God wants us to see. Help the helpless, and bring people to Him and His Kingdom. It's hard, yes, I know. I still struggle to this day with bringing people to church. And to talk to friends who aren't christian or who don't want to even look at you when you say Jesus. But it's something that must be done. If they don't want to be apart of it, that's their choice. As long as you try, God will be pleased with whatever you do. He loves you no matter what you do or don't do.

Roller Coaster of Life.

I've been on a roller coaster. And let me just say, it isn't fun. I'm not enjoying it at all. It's a scary experience! And it still is. But it's a moment in life that we all go though.
Life will give us little bumps in the road, but with God and Faith it is so smooth with or without those bumps and roller coasters. No matter what happens, He is with us.
I've learned that! And I'm still learning. I'll have moments that I'll struggle with, and my friends do warn me. But I don't listen, just the other day I jumped into a situation that's unhealthy for me. And I'm still trapped in that unhealthy situation. It circulates. And it really, really, really sucks. But that was my choice.
I have moments of anger and tears, and that happens over and over again. And it hurts. But what got me out of that situation was the help of a few of very amazing friends. I wouldn't be where I am today without them.
Friends are so important to me right now. And I'm thankful for them.
But seriously guys, choose the right path. There's paths of good and evil.
Choose. It's hard. But you have a choice, and God will still love you for whatever choice you make.
In my opinion, good is better than evil. And good always wins, no matter the situation. Don't listen to the lame voices in your head, because they are wrong! It's easy to tell who is who. God will never say to you that you're ugly or you're worthless. Genesis 1:27; "So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them."
Just remember that.
Isaiah 40. Read it.

I know I jumped out of context. But the main point is to forgive and move on. If you ever need anything, go to God, he's always there. Or talk to friends, they know and understand. But go to the ones you trust! Go to the ones that won't sugar coat it, go to the ones who will tell you straight up. Those are the ones that have helped me. And I love them for that. I really do. And they are my friends that I will trust forever.
Listen, it helps.
Now I ask only one question, what path do you choose in life?

March 26th.

On march 26th, my brother:

Andrew Hamilton.

Got married to a beautiful girl:

Stephanie Senges.

It was a beautiful wedding.

Black dresses and tuxes, yellow accents, white bride. Absolutely stunning. And on top of it all, it never poured with rain. Thank the Lord.

Bridesmaids got with other bridesmaids, and groomsmen with other groomsmen.

Girls got up early to get their hair and make-up done, while the boys had breakfast, chilled, watched a movie and then got ready to leave for the church. Wowie, we're all so different.

The bridesmaids gathering was fun! We helped the bride get ready for her BIG day. Her dress was breathtaking. She looked like a princess; Ivory lace, bows and toole. Wow.

And to complete her dress, she had a marvelous bouquet of yellow flowers. Lily's and roses.

I couldn't believe how amazing we all looked, her mom and my mom, her family and my family, her friends and his friends, we all looked outstanding.

(I'm trying to think of more words to describe this day, and I can't think anymore, there's just not enough.)

God definitely gave us an amazing day that none of us will ever forget. :)

The church, Ebenezer Baptist Church, was beautifully decorated, yellow flowers everywhere. I adored it.

The groom took the grandparents down the isle, along with the parents of the bride and groom. And then it was time for the groom to pause and wait by the alter for the bride. The groomsmen waited a the bottom of the isle for the bridesmaids, as one by one they walked down.

On top of the stage was a band, a band playing 'Only Hope'. It was beautifully done, sounded just like the real group who sang it originally before.

It was the grooms friends from church.

I loved it, everyone did.

Everything was perfect, it was a beautiful happy ending.

Tears of joy, we watched the bride walk towards the groom. She looked stunning, and he had no clue what to say, I think he looked quite stunned himself.

They are so happy, it makes me happy to see my brother so full of joy and love.

The reception happened at Stanley Park Pavillion. Like I said it was beautiful, yellow accents everywhere. The building was ancient, I loved it. Lots of people after the ceremony came out. I felt like there was more people at the reception than there was at the ceremony.

There was speeches from both sides. It was very heartfelt, there were tears and laughs. Definitely a beautiful, disney felt wedding. I loved it. She was happy that her dream came true.

The bride had a Daddy Daughter dance and a First Dance with Andy. It was adorable, I almost cried.

There was a huge dance party, that everyone danced too. 

It's hard to let go of the ones you love, I had to do that multiple times. It's not easy. I hate goodbyes. Saying goodbye to people is only hard if they live on the other side of the world and if they move into another new family.

I had to say goodbye to Tim and Anita Van Egmond. :(

I had to let go of my brother, so he could live happily with his wife, and to live and belong with the Senges. (Not like he didn't before). But it's still hard.

I know I'll still see him, but still... it's hard.

So that's the wedding info, lots to say, and lots to show. It was amazing, and I loved every minute of it. :)!!